I should have said that it was my father-in-law's birthday yesterday. It has been a month of birthdays. Just keeping it to relations it has been my mother-in-law's birthday followed by my mother's birthday the next day, then my father's birthday just over a week later, then my birthday a week after that and finally my father-in-law's birthday. Definately an expensive month, but they are funto celebrate.
It is strange, really, you go around now saying to yourself, "well that is the last time I will be celebrating that". I find I cannot help it. Christmas came and went and you think, "well that is probably my last Christmas". The same was true for my birthday. It may not be true but you cannot help it. Is it a very pessimistic view to take ? I don't think so. I don't feel overly sad/depressed about it, I just feel that I must do what I can to enjoy it as much as possible.
On to last night and today. It was a bit of a disturbed night but not too bad, I was able to get a few hours sleep. Still quite tired and dozey today, though. I tried to watch a film, but had to spend most of the time rewinding it because I had dropped off and missed some/all of the remainder of it.
Unfortunately the District Nurses came very early at about 8:30 P.M. tonight. They usually come between 11:00 P.M. and midnight. It will leave a long gap until it is changed again. We will have to see if anything can be done to alleviate the situation.
A short post tonight as I am still tired, time to go now, so good night all.
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Hi David, glad you've still got the energy to keep your blog updated. I thought the rugby was rubbish, well being English and losing to a Welsh club rugby team!!
I got plenty of DVDs sitting at home, I'll drop you round a list of them and you can see if you fancy watching any of them.
If the girls fancy coming round for tea and a go on the Wii Olympics (Johns favourite at the moment), just ask Orlagh to chat to Elizabeth at school - be strong, we're all thinking of you, Geraldine and the girls
David,
No, I don't think it's pessimistic to think "that's the last time I'll be celebrating that" because none of us actually know whether we will celebrate another birthday - however fit we may be feeling today - and it helps us reflect and make the most of each occasion. Perhaps we should all make more of an effort to appreciate every day and what we've got rather than spend time complaining and yearning for more.
You are an inspiration to everyone who knows you and setting up this blog is a tribute to your positive attitude. I have to admit that this is the first blog I've ever read and (of course) the first one I've ever posted to. I look forward to continuing to read your updates - I hope you had a good sleep last night and that you will be feeling up to posting again later today.
Very best wishes to you, Geraldine & the children, Mike Dobson
P.S. Now I've got to work out how to post this ... !!!
Hi
have just been reading your diary,
Good idea . i know you have lots of help but anytime anything else is needed be it picking up things or keeping you company at night then just call.
i unlike Tony don't have many dvds unless your into kids films!!
Lots of love to you all
Carmel and Co.
Blogging ... a new experience for me. Strictly speaking, I suppose you’re the one actually blogging and I’m reading a blog. Or am I blogging by posting to your blog?? Anyway, thank you for introducing me to the process.
It is good to be able to keep up with what is happening with you, David. We are thinking of you a lot.
P.S. On birthdays, please could you pass on to your father-in-law (you know who I mean) that we are sorry not to have sent him anything yet but will be doing so very soon.
Love, Frances
Hi David
I dont know if would remember me, Mark Nevola, I was in your year group at Campion, just thought I would touch base following an e-mail posted on the Friends reunited site.
Do you keep in touch with many of the year group?
I tended to move around the country so lost touch pretty quickly.
Hope you are comfortable, hope to catch your blog updates soon.
Mark
David
Gabriel pointed me in the direction of your blog and I am very glad he did as I have found reading it over the last couple of days a humbling experience. I marvel at your good spirit and fortitude but wonder if you might just like to rage.
Mick
Hi David
It is 8pm and i have just read Sunday 3 Feb, i could not help but pick up on your comment about being pessimistic! i agree with you, you are not being pessimistic, your thoughts and feelings are your own, i am thinking that it is a kind of grief. Cardinaql Hume said that we grieve alone for it is ours alone. You are right this is not depression these are real feelings. Yes, you need to enjoy the moment but it will always be tinged with sadness. We don't usually talk about what is in our heart,for fear of upseting or burdening the other person.
Which of course is a nonsense because people want to be there for you,
I had better stop my rambling, but before i do i want to quote St Therese she said,"Listen to Him in the depth of your heart, i am hidden in your loneliness. Search for me there and you will find me-loving, compassionate, tender,understanding and strengthing."
Good night David i will speak to you tomorrow evening.
Love margaret.
Hi David & Geraldine, just logged on and read your diary and the comments posted. Then asked god lots of questions about the meaning of life, fairness, suffering etc. When he comes back with the answers I'll let you know. Apologies for bringing religion into the subject but that's what I did. Fred and Eileen keep us up to date but I look forward to reading your future entries. If there is anything Jacqui and I can do please let us know. God bless you and your family. Stay strong in spirit.
Neil Manning
Hi Dave,
Kevin Lenehan sent me the link to your Blog last night.
You were always the most gentle and considerate of people I worked with and it seems so totally unfair that of all people you have had to endure this.
I think your Blog is a great idea : I can hear that distinctive voice of yours pronouncing every word ... Like most of us I receive countless emails every year but sadly none of them are what used to be called "personal letters".
Your Blog is very much like reading such letters and your whole personality comes across : exactly as you always were.
I find myself a bit short of words - a rare thing and probably a good thing some may say :-)
Me and Kev and Laurence are all working together as you probably know : I think they should be up for nobel prizes soon - especially Laurence who's now had to put up with me for probably about 12 years ! Its all very rollercoaster like : one day I come home from work full of the joys of spring and the next full of terror that its all falling apart ... some things never change it seems.
Your Blog puts all that into perspective and reminds me of the important things in life like kindness and friendship. I'm sure its a great testimony to what a lovely person you are that you have so many friends wanting to help you and your family.
You are very much in my thoughts and prayers ... lots of love Richard Bray
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